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Sorry for the lack of posts recently

I haven’t posted for a month or so (oops). I said I was taking a temporary hiatus but I’m not sure I’m going to keep blogging at all now…

At the start of this blog it was like a hobby that I really enjoyed and there was no pressure and I’m proud of my (not very long) journey. Thanks everyone who has read my stuff and interacted and followed. ūüėÄ

But now it feels like more of a chore to think of what to post… I don’t want to post for the sake of posting, I prefer sharing genuine creative and meaningful things but lately I haven’t been able to produce that.

So in short, I will probably stop blogging. Maybe I’ll be active (as in creating content – I’ll still check my reader from time to time)¬†in a couple of months, maybe I won’t.

Until then, peace out. ūüėõ

(I have however, posted the poem I wrote last October as a parting gift. It’s my last fully edited piece in my drafts currently.)

– Nix

Song: Stress No More by Justin Love (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70HAO-C4wSw)

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Friendships and the future

January has been interesting so far. Not much has happened exactly, but there’s been a lot of talking.

For instance in Sociology we were doing some Feminism and I casually said that I don’t think I want to get married and that seemed to be shocking. Part of me thinks marriage is just a piece of paper and the other thinks it’s more commitment than I’d ever be ready for. The average cost of a wedding is just over ¬£20,000 but I’d definitely have a low-key one if I was going to have one. My friend reminded me that I could wear a suit if I wanted (I feel horrible in dresses and skirts).

I’ve had some ups and downs in my one of my friendships but we’re close again thankfully. I haven’t known him that long but he offered to take me out for my 18th birthday which I’m looking forward to.

I got invited to go¬†to celebrate Chinese New Year (28th January) with some friends but I don’t think I’ll go because I’m socially awkward.

L’s birthday was two weeks ago and I didn’t have time to get a present so I got her a bath bomb from Lush last week. And I bet ¬£5 that I won’t get any A* grades for¬†my A-levels. Hopefully I’m wrong but it’s not long until my exams.

I treated myself to Firewatch Рit was on Steam for £9 that day and it looked beautiful in the trailer so I thought why not?

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Ollie had his first experience of snow.

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All my friends seem to have replied to their uni offers, so I’ve made my firm and insurance choices now too. I did better than I thought I would in my mocks considering I hadn’t really revised¬†– approximately one A and two B’s. I can now just focus on studying hard…

I say as I spent last weekend drawing instead of making revision notes:

Clue: “When I close my eyes it’s like a dark paradise”

Clue: “You were red and you liked me ’cause I was blue. You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky. And you decided purple just wasn’t for you.”

I did an experimental watercolour background then outlined in 4B pencil before finishing in biro.

Q: Can you recognise who these portraits are of? ūüôā

Sadly I haven’t improved my¬†skills much¬†since I dropped the subject after secondary school.

I brought¬†Cards Against Humanity into college earlier this week and 11 people in total ended up playing so it took¬† a while! It was fun though, I think I came 2nd with 4 black cards and M came 1st with 7 black cards. Now you can tell who I really am :’)img_4981

I traded belated Christmas presents with M¬†and unlike him I didn’t scoff the lot in the first 12 hours but I can confirm the Twirl Bites are gone now.img_4970¬†

Notes: featured image mine, above photos taken on my phone camera

(A: Lana Del Rey and Halsey)

I’m excited for 2017 except the part about Brexit and Trump/Pence. That’s scary.

It’s quite worrying that since Trump has been sworn in, pages¬†such as¬†civil rights, climate change, healthcare, immigration¬†and LGBT rights have disappeared¬†from the White House website ( https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2017/jan/20/white-house-website-trump-policy-agenda).

On the bright side, it was amazing to see how many took part in the Women’s marches. We have to fight back.¬†These¬†are some photos I saw on Twitter/Snapchat which seemed quite fitting:

It’s not fair that a bunch of old white men get to decide what women can and can’t do. No uterus, no opinion.

I’m still struggling to be inspired for poems at the moment and my college workload is increasing so I might not post next week.

Any words of motivation to get work done would be really appreciated. ūüôā

Song: Angels Will Rise by Twisted Jukebox (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zAspzNfHCs)

Gong xi fa caiÔĽŅ

Is Chinese Mandarin for “Wishing you a prosperous year” according to Google.

This isn’t a random language I picked for my belated New Year post though, I’m actually Chinese born but grew up in Britain and never learned Chinese which surprises most people. I would love to speak multiple languages, alas I don’t have the aptitude for it. (What languages can you speak?)

I waited to get my hair cut and dip dyed before writing this so I could share photos…

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I didn’t take very comparable photos but yeah… My hair is naturally straight and black and it’s hard to see the colour under bad lighting. The hairdresser is really cool and helped me pick the brown and persuaded me to let him layer my hair then curl it. (I’m sad that the curls will be gone by Monday which is when people would see it.)

In fact he thought there was a mistake when he saw what I was booked for since I usually have just a straight trim, no layering or colouring :’) I know a lot of people who dye their hair and it’s a new year though, so I thought I’d go for it. I considered colours like electric blue, dark green and red but thought I’d play it safe since it’s the first time I’ve dyed my hair. Do you dye your hair? ūüôā

Now I’m gonna rewind a bit, back to the 24th of December 2016.

’twas the night before Christmas…I realised the Christmas card I bought was not a Christmas card. Here is how I rectified that:

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I mean, if you see snow you’re probably gonna assume it’s about Christmas right?

This Christmas was quiet. The novelty has worn off for me. And I was still feeling rough but now I think I’ve recovered (fingers crossed). It’s the one day I try really hard to spend more time with my family instead of on my phone though. Just played Cluedo among other boardgames during the afternoon – a great game for the family, not – which was enjoyable.

A couple of days later, I used my Christmas money to buy Professor Layton and the Miracle Mask – I’m a fan of that series and I play them with my dad (he does the puzzles I can’t solve). I’m enjoying it! Although 3D never really adds to games in my opinion, so I have that turned off. I’ve also been enjoying Pok√©mon Moon, much better than Pok√©mon Black/White, Black 2/White 2 or X/Y in my opinion. Refreshing. But nothing in my eyes will ever beat Platinum.img_4335

Then one of my older brothers visited and gave me a chocolate wreath and two beautiful notepads and a pen (the chocolate disappeared very quickly).img_4276

My parents and I (is that correct grammar?) watched the new episode of Sherlock. It was entertaining but I don’t think it made sense that Mary had the time to move Sherlock out the way of the bullet – if that’s possible couldn’t he just move himself..?

We also watched the new episodes of the latest series of Father Brown which HAVE impressed me, although I’ll miss Lady Felicia. I like Bunty’s character too, it’s refreshing. Does anyone here happen to watch Father Brown? I’m really into mystery/police/detective shows…

I have also been binging YouTube videos lately. Mostly of gaming or Cards Against Humanity which cracks me up every time. I was re-watching Until Dawn gameplay until about midnight and then I think I had a nightmare within a nightmare when I fell asleep so I don’t think it wasn’t a good idea!

College is back to normal next week. I only had to be in for one and a half days for the start of term for college this week. :3 If I manage to get a C in all my mocks I’ll be surprised but over the moon. If I got higher than that on my English I’d be amazed because I only did half an hour of revision in the morning on the day (shh). However, people who did the mocks before us did give us hints for Geography and English.

My mum took me for KFC as a treat after to celebrate finishing my mocks which was nice. We browsed some shops but I didn’t buy anything and just ended up making the most of the mirrors in the shops. Docs are love, docs are life.

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May 2017 be a better year than 2016. ūüėõ

…Might be difficult considering Trump is the president-elect and Brexit might be in the works but hey-ho.

Notes: featured image not mine, other photos taken on my phone camera

Edit: I just noticed that typo in the second paragraph, I need an editor to edit my editing clearly :’)

Song: Ho Hey by The Lumineers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvCBSSwgtg4)

 

Being good pays off

I’ve built up a reputation as¬†reliable student at college, so I slightly¬†exploited it (in¬†quite a mundane, lame way) by taking¬†one or two more¬†sick days than I probably needed – but I doubt anyone will berate me for being absent for this first time this academic year…

So I guess I won’t be going on Santa’s nice list this year.

The prospect of a double Geography lesson yesterday just didn’t really appeal to me.

And to be fair, it is the end of term. What have you gotten away with before?

I decided to come in today though¬†and I’m glad I did – we only had a half day which meant I didn’t have my usual Geography lesson (yay).¬†Our Sociology teacher is honestly an awesome guy (although his handwriting is like another language so I can never read it).

As a class, we played quizzes for the first hour. Has anyone played “Kahoot!” before? Well, we did, and the girl I sit next to is super-competitive like me so it was really intense but fun. Everyone worked in pairs against each other and we¬†worked through 75 Crime and Deviance-related questions. Basically, the quicker you¬†correctly answer,¬†the more points you get.

Sadly we got pipped to the post and came 3rd place although we were 1st for a good five or ten minutes. The class even got to share a tub of Celebrations (and I meant to take a photo before but forgot).

And my friend gave me the last quarter of her chocolate chip cookie that she got from the canteen in the break – she does that a lot, but I’m not complaining!

I’m not even lying about the next thing I’m about to tell you: for the rest of the lesson we were either allowed to make balloon animals or start revising.

Also, while I have been off, I have written some stories but they’re not going to see the light of day. I do however, have three (currently incomplete) stories that I may post in the future – one of them is an apocalypse scenario. I do actually write quite a lot, I’m just notoriously bad at finishing anything…

This Friday I’ll either post¬†my review of The Picture of Dorian Gray or a poem I think.

Anyway it’s Christmas on Sunday, how did it come round so fast?! ūüėÄ What songs do you listen to in order to get into the holiday spirit?

Notes: featured image not mine

Song: Remember The Name by Fort Minor ft. Styles of Beyond ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDvr08sCPOc)

A Good Start to December

This is just another little update, kind of also a haul/favourite things post I suppose.

I shamelessly indulged in a bit of retail therapy when the Black Friday sales came around this year. Doc Martens had selected items with 30% discounts! So I got these dark grey rigal shoes:img_3655Fantastic Beasts has come out¬†–¬†I haven’t seen it yet but I was hoping to go with the girl I want to get to know. Then¬†I found out she’s already seen it.¬†DUN DUN DUN. I’m mulling over whether to give her the Christmas card I made. She said hello to me today and oh my god that makes me feel warm and happy. I love how certain people just make your day.

Some people have got their Christmas trees up already. On the topic of Christmas, I wore my penguin jumper to college this week:img_3654

And today I made some Christmas cards. I enjoy making or receiving personal/hand-crafted cards, packaging or presents so I definitely recommend giving it a go!

What I did:

  • Cut out designs from old Christmas cards and used pritt stick to stick them on an A5¬†piece of folded paper.
  • Picked the Death Note anime font (pictured below – http://www.fontspace.com/dieter-steffmann/cloister-black)¬†and wrote “Happy Xmas”. death-note-font-alphabet-2
  • ¬†Printed out pictures (or drew) things the that my friends like and added jokes/memes.
  • On some of the cards I made a simple pop-up in the card and stuck a picture of their favourite character or¬†celebrity¬†with a Christmas hat on. img_3663

I’ve also been invited to party but¬†now I have Pok√©mon Moon…does anyone really need to interact with other humans? I may or may not have played 10 hours on Saturday…

I chose a boy avatar and named myself after a meme for once. Whaddya think of my modern quiff?

img_3658This was my party, I have been going with a fictional character theme – Lady Narborough, Dorian Gray and Alan Campbell. I’m half way through the novel at the moment. If anyone here has picked up the game, which starter did you pick and why?

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Rizzoli and Isles season 6 DVD finally arrived and I’ve been getting back into that show. It’s probably one of my favourites because it’s got the mystery aspect, the chemistry between the two main characters, it’s rampant with comedy – it’s a great pick-me-up. The theme tune is enough to make me smile.img_3661And it’s really bad of me, but I’ve had a double chocolate muffin/a cookie from the college canteen for breakfast on three occasions in the past two weeks.

Lastly, although it¬†slightly restores my faith in humanity, the fact that strangers at college ask me if I’m okay has led me to the conclusion that I have Resting Depressed Face rather than Resting Bitch Face. Does anyone else experience this?

Notes: featured image not mine

Song: I’m Shipping Up To Boston by Dropkick Murphys (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7x5xWwHLj_k) – similar to Rizzoli and Isles theme song

 

Dissolved

Sometimes I like it empty:

isolation can tempt me

as anxiety averts me from a congested room

and being tired tends to make social interaction my tomb.

 

Or I like to be around my friends

(who I see rarely on weekends,

though they do make me smile)

or walk unfamiliar crowds once in a while

where I can go unnoticed because they

don’t know me and when I go away

they won’t remember me

so I don’t care – I feel free.

 

I hate feeling eyes on me

athough I’ve found music is key,

and on my own, time is of no concern

but a room full of people will make my stomach churn

so before leaving, I scan

for the easiest escape route as an

unwanted encounter is the last thing I need.

 

Meanwhile I must fight the rising nerves, I

must keep my breathing under control, say goodbye

which when I do, no one hears

but at least the fresh air nears.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine – credit: Ink by Esad Hajdarevic (https://www.flickr.com/photos/heidarewitsch/) (source: https://www.flickr.com/photos/heidarewitsch/4660832612) licensed under CC BY 2.0

I know the rhyme scheme makes the poem disjointed but I’m only a fledgling poet…

It’s so weird posting on Tuesdays now, I’m out of habit. Did two tests in class today, only revised for the subject which I want to do at uni though…Got a call from one of the universities I put as a choice on my UCAS form which I’ve sent off now but it was a complete anti-climax as they were just asking if I wanted to come to another open day but I’ve already made my mind up! Awkward. Yesterday I managed to cut my elbow on a pillow. The zip. My scars have the lamest stories behind them, seriously. Just think of me next time you feel you’ve done something idiotically clumsy ūüėõ I also went on a bike ride last weekend for the first time in over a year but I’m not sure if it’ll ever be the same, which makes me sad (I hate running).

I added some links to my previous post of things you could do that might help, I’ll put them here too:

Song: Stay In My Memory by Bim 

Reading Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

Ayy, did anyone get that Panic! At The Disco reference? The point is, a friend offered her spare P!ATD concert ticket as none of her other friends seem to want to go. She’s so sweet, she gave it to me for free too. This will be my first concert so I’m pretty nervous but also pumped. Is anyone else going to the one on the 20th November/ a fan?

So the reading part of the title of this blog is just because I’ve started reading The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. For fun. I’ve reached chapter 7 from reading it during my free periods at college partly so that it doesn’t look like I’m twiddling my thumbs. I’m not finding it very thrilling at the moment but from what I’ve heard, things will get interesting. Hopefully I can write a review if I ever finish any of the books I start…img_2139

Funnily enough, I hit it off with a friend’s friend last Friday and today I told him a joke:

“Why did the chicken cross the road? Because she wanted to say hello from the other side.”

Needless to say, eyes rolled. Although I told it to my classmate too and she laughed. Good-natured laughter especially when I cause it, is one of my favourite moments. As are the silly things our Ollie does (he tried to bite the ice scraper today but it was on the other side of a window). It was a video clip but I have a free account so WordPress wouldn’t let me post it, so here is a screenshot:img_2142

Today happens to be not only the voting day for the US 2016 election but my friend’s birthday. Great present :’) But in all seriousness, I hope America’s next President is not going to be one who is an openly xenophobic, homophobic, misogynistic, disablist tyrant who thinks tax evasion is smart and would date his daughter if she wasn’t his daughter.

Anyway, on Sunday I went to see The Accountant (maybe I was swayed by the fact Anna Kendrick is in it) but it was actually really good. Check it out! We missed the first showing of the day because of traffic which was exacerbated by the London to Brighton Veteran Car Run. While we were stuck I saw a vintage looking convertible which I thought looked quite suave (can I even use that word in this context? Oh well).img_2045

I also wore a hoodie to college for the first time in months. That’s when you know it’s definitely autumn/winter which are probably my favourite seasons because I love feeling snug and cuddly. Although I will wait until December at least until I start wearing my Christmas pudding beanie – I’m not that uncivilised. img_2138

Notes: featured image not mine but other photos in this post are

Since the problems with posting I have stopped scheduling posts in case they go wrong and I haven’t had much time to write more creative posts, sorry readers.

Song: Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off by Panic! At The Disco (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AZxUtZ2ZgI)