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In the moment

Running lukewarm through

my veins, unfulfilled hopes quashed,

tension waned; mellow.

Music swaying, lips seeking

easy, dizzying nectar.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine

I can only be succinct/concise in my poems and not my essays, it seems…

And yes I reposted this just now as the first one didn’t appear at the top of my blog for some reason.

Song: Everybody’s Watching Me (Uh Oh) by The Neighbourhood (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7FeTsK3Vr4) – listened to the I Love You album on repeat whilst writing this. The voice reminds me of the kind of melancholic feeling I get from listening to Lana Del Rey too, but more relaxing.

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Friendships and the future

January has been interesting so far. Not much has happened exactly, but there’s been a lot of talking.

For instance in Sociology we were doing some Feminism and I casually said that I don’t think I want to get married and that seemed to be shocking. Part of me thinks marriage is just a piece of paper and the other thinks it’s more commitment than I’d ever be ready for. The average cost of a wedding is just over £20,000 but I’d definitely have a low-key one if I was going to have one. My friend reminded me that I could wear a suit if I wanted (I feel horrible in dresses and skirts).

I’ve had some ups and downs in my one of my friendships but we’re close again thankfully. I haven’t known him that long but he offered to take me out for my 18th birthday which I’m looking forward to.

I got invited to go to celebrate Chinese New Year (28th January) with some friends but I don’t think I’ll go because I’m socially awkward.

L’s birthday was two weeks ago and I didn’t have time to get a present so I got her a bath bomb from Lush last week. And I bet £5 that I won’t get any A* grades for my A-levels. Hopefully I’m wrong but it’s not long until my exams.

I treated myself to Firewatch – it was on Steam for £9 that day and it looked beautiful in the trailer so I thought why not?

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Ollie had his first experience of snow.

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All my friends seem to have replied to their uni offers, so I’ve made my firm and insurance choices now too. I did better than I thought I would in my mocks considering I hadn’t really revised – approximately one A and two B’s. I can now just focus on studying hard…

I say as I spent last weekend drawing instead of making revision notes:

Clue: “When I close my eyes it’s like a dark paradise”

Clue: “You were red and you liked me ’cause I was blue. You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky. And you decided purple just wasn’t for you.”

I did an experimental watercolour background then outlined in 4B pencil before finishing in biro.

Q: Can you recognise who these portraits are of? 🙂

Sadly I haven’t improved my skills much since I dropped the subject after secondary school.

I brought Cards Against Humanity into college earlier this week and 11 people in total ended up playing so it took  a while! It was fun though, I think I came 2nd with 4 black cards and M came 1st with 7 black cards. Now you can tell who I really am :’)img_4981

I traded belated Christmas presents with M and unlike him I didn’t scoff the lot in the first 12 hours but I can confirm the Twirl Bites are gone now.img_4970 

Notes: featured image mine, above photos taken on my phone camera

(A: Lana Del Rey and Halsey)

I’m excited for 2017 except the part about Brexit and Trump/Pence. That’s scary.

It’s quite worrying that since Trump has been sworn in, pages such as civil rights, climate change, healthcare, immigration and LGBT rights have disappeared from the White House website ( https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2017/jan/20/white-house-website-trump-policy-agenda).

On the bright side, it was amazing to see how many took part in the Women’s marches. We have to fight back. These are some photos I saw on Twitter/Snapchat which seemed quite fitting:

It’s not fair that a bunch of old white men get to decide what women can and can’t do. No uterus, no opinion.

I’m still struggling to be inspired for poems at the moment and my college workload is increasing so I might not post next week.

Any words of motivation to get work done would be really appreciated. 🙂

Song: Angels Will Rise by Twisted Jukebox (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zAspzNfHCs)

Is the feeling mutual?

Your pulse starts to hammer

every time you’re close to her-

did she just smile at you?

She couldn’t have

you walk on

suddenly fascinated by the floor.

 

A few months later:

your phone flickers to life

your eyes widen

there’s new notification on your screen

Whoa.

 

– Nix

Notes
: featured image not mine

I tried to post this in the morning at college but WordPress fucked up again and since I was in my phone I couldn’t re-do it until I got home.

Song: Take Me To Church by Hozier (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYSVMgRr6pw)

Sleep

Eyelids heavy

pulse steady

life’s remedy.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine

Hope everyone is having happy holidays. 🙂

May go on hiatus due to mock exams coming up.

It’s been extra stressful these past two weeks since several members of the family including myself have been in and out of hospitals/doctors.

I wanted to post a Christmassy poem on Christmas Day but I got stuck for ideas, so next time maybe!

Song: The A Team by Ed Sheeran (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAWcs5H-qgQ)

What it’s like to overthink

I don’t know what’s worse;

to have a full day, or to

have time to myself.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine

First world problems, I know but it’s getting very irritating when wordpress swallows your blog post into an abyss of nothingness – the first time I tried posting this it didn’t appear published, nor did it stay in my drafts, as far as I know. Couldn’t even find it buried in my older posts. Fortunately it was just a haiku.

Song: Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92XVwY54h5k)

Steamy and a chance of showers

Faced away from the glorious cascade,

I’m swept up by the water’s warm embrace,

I listen to the pitter patter of its dance,

feeling the water chase the stress away.

 

The cobwebs in my mind now blown,

sets me free

from the demand of modernity.

 

And then the water droplets land

on the tiles

now causing ripples –

time to get out,

feel the cold slap of reality.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine

The title is inspired by that Cloudy and a Chance of Meatballs movie but to be honest there’s no reason – just felt like naming the post this :’)

I’m not very satisfied with the content I’m posting recently and I’m going to put that mostly down to rushing – yep, even though I spent more time writing for fun than I had for my English coursework…

I should probably change my tagline and I want to change the blog name too but I haven’t thought of a new one and it could confuse people. Edit: I changed them to what I think my blog is at the moment, whaddya think?

Anyway I’m going to keep writing and try to write more creatively than I have been. I’ve gained way more followers than I thought I would when I started this blog – thank you, readers. At this rate, maybe I will reach 100 followers by February. Hopefully you’ll start to see more than just poems and life updates on this blog.

Song: Young God by Halsey (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUhJRQSs6UQ) – if you like Troye Sivan’s music I think you’d like hers and vice versa 🙂