Sorry for the lack of posts recently

I haven’t posted for a month or so (oops). I said I was taking a temporary hiatus but I’m not sure I’m going to keep blogging at all now…

At the start of this blog it was like a hobby that I really enjoyed and there was no pressure and I’m proud of my (not very long) journey. Thanks everyone who has read my stuff and interacted and followed. ūüėÄ

But now it feels like more of a chore to think of what to post… I don’t want to post for the sake of posting, I prefer sharing genuine creative and meaningful things but lately I haven’t been able to produce that.

So in short, I will probably stop blogging. Maybe I’ll be active (as in creating content – I’ll still check my reader from time to time)¬†in a couple of months, maybe I won’t.

Until then, peace out. ūüėõ

(I have however, posted the poem I wrote last October as a parting gift. It’s my last fully edited piece in my drafts currently.)

– Nix

Song: Stress No More by Justin Love (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70HAO-C4wSw)

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In the moment

Running lukewarm through

my veins, unfulfilled hopes quashed,

tension waned; mellow.

Music swaying, lips seeking

easy, dizzying nectar.

 

– Nix

Notes: featured image not mine

I can only be succinct/concise in my poems and not my essays, it seems…

And yes I reposted this just now as the first one didn’t appear at the top of my blog for some reason.

Song: Everybody’s Watching Me (Uh Oh) by The Neighbourhood (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7FeTsK3Vr4)¬†– listened to the I Love You album on repeat whilst writing this. The voice reminds me of the kind of melancholic feeling I get from listening to Lana Del Rey too, but more relaxing.

Friendships and the future

January has been interesting so far. Not much has happened exactly, but there’s been a lot of talking.

For instance in Sociology we were doing some Feminism and I casually said that I don’t think I want to get married and that seemed to be shocking. Part of me thinks marriage is just a piece of paper and the other thinks it’s more commitment than I’d ever be ready for. The average cost of a wedding is just over ¬£20,000 but I’d definitely have a low-key one if I was going to have one. My friend reminded me that I could wear a suit if I wanted (I feel horrible in dresses and skirts).

I’ve had some ups and downs in my one of my friendships but we’re close again thankfully. I haven’t known him that long but he offered to take me out for my 18th birthday which I’m looking forward to.

I got invited to go¬†to celebrate Chinese New Year (28th January) with some friends but I don’t think I’ll go because I’m socially awkward.

L’s birthday was two weeks ago and I didn’t have time to get a present so I got her a bath bomb from Lush last week. And I bet ¬£5 that I won’t get any A* grades for¬†my A-levels. Hopefully I’m wrong but it’s not long until my exams.

I treated myself to Firewatch Рit was on Steam for £9 that day and it looked beautiful in the trailer so I thought why not?

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Ollie had his first experience of snow.

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All my friends seem to have replied to their uni offers, so I’ve made my firm and insurance choices now too. I did better than I thought I would in my mocks considering I hadn’t really revised¬†– approximately one A and two B’s. I can now just focus on studying hard…

I say as I spent last weekend drawing instead of making revision notes:

Clue: “When I close my eyes it’s like a dark paradise”

Clue: “You were red and you liked me ’cause I was blue. You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky. And you decided purple just wasn’t for you.”

I did an experimental watercolour background then outlined in 4B pencil before finishing in biro.

Q: Can you recognise who these portraits are of? ūüôā

Sadly I haven’t improved my¬†skills much¬†since I dropped the subject after secondary school.

I brought¬†Cards Against Humanity into college earlier this week and 11 people in total ended up playing so it took¬† a while! It was fun though, I think I came 2nd with 4 black cards and M came 1st with 7 black cards. Now you can tell who I really am :’)img_4981

I traded belated Christmas presents with M¬†and unlike him I didn’t scoff the lot in the first 12 hours but I can confirm the Twirl Bites are gone now.img_4970¬†

Notes: featured image mine, above photos taken on my phone camera

(A: Lana Del Rey and Halsey)

I’m excited for 2017 except the part about Brexit and Trump/Pence. That’s scary.

It’s quite worrying that since Trump has been sworn in, pages¬†such as¬†civil rights, climate change, healthcare, immigration¬†and LGBT rights have disappeared¬†from the White House website ( https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2017/jan/20/white-house-website-trump-policy-agenda).

On the bright side, it was amazing to see how many took part in the Women’s marches. We have to fight back.¬†These¬†are some photos I saw on Twitter/Snapchat which seemed quite fitting:

It’s not fair that a bunch of old white men get to decide what women can and can’t do. No uterus, no opinion.

I’m still struggling to be inspired for poems at the moment and my college workload is increasing so I might not post next week.

Any words of motivation to get work done would be really appreciated. ūüôā

Song: Angels Will Rise by Twisted Jukebox (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zAspzNfHCs)

Is the feeling mutual?

Your pulse starts to hammer

every time you’re close to her-

did she just smile at you?

She couldn’t have

you walk on

suddenly fascinated by the floor.

 

A few months later:

your phone flickers to life

your eyes widen

there’s new notification on your screen

Whoa.

 

– Nix

Notes
: featured image not mine

I tried to post this in the morning at college but WordPress fucked up again and since I was in my phone I couldn’t re-do it until I got home.

Song: Take Me To Church by Hozier (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYSVMgRr6pw)

Gong xi fa caiÔĽŅ

Is Chinese Mandarin for “Wishing you a prosperous year” according to Google.

This isn’t a random language I picked for my belated New Year post though, I’m actually Chinese born but grew up in Britain and never learned Chinese which surprises most people. I would love to speak multiple languages, alas I don’t have the aptitude for it. (What languages can you speak?)

I waited to get my hair cut and dip dyed before writing this so I could share photos…

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I didn’t take very comparable photos but yeah… My hair is naturally straight and black and it’s hard to see the colour under bad lighting. The hairdresser is really cool and helped me pick the brown and persuaded me to let him layer my hair then curl it. (I’m sad that the curls will be gone by Monday which is when people would see it.)

In fact he thought there was a mistake when he saw what I was booked for since I usually have just a straight trim, no layering or colouring :’) I know a lot of people who dye their hair and it’s a new year though, so I thought I’d go for it. I considered colours like electric blue, dark green and red but thought I’d play it safe since it’s the first time I’ve dyed my hair. Do you dye your hair? ūüôā

Now I’m gonna rewind a bit, back to the 24th of December 2016.

’twas the night before Christmas…I realised the Christmas card I bought was not a Christmas card. Here is how I rectified that:

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I mean, if you see snow you’re probably gonna assume it’s about Christmas right?

This Christmas was quiet. The novelty has worn off for me. And I was still feeling rough but now I think I’ve recovered (fingers crossed). It’s the one day I try really hard to spend more time with my family instead of on my phone though. Just played Cluedo among other boardgames during the afternoon – a great game for the family, not – which was enjoyable.

A couple of days later, I used my Christmas money to buy Professor Layton and the Miracle Mask – I’m a fan of that series and I play them with my dad (he does the puzzles I can’t solve). I’m enjoying it! Although 3D never really adds to games in my opinion, so I have that turned off. I’ve also been enjoying Pok√©mon Moon, much better than Pok√©mon Black/White, Black 2/White 2 or X/Y in my opinion. Refreshing. But nothing in my eyes will ever beat Platinum.img_4335

Then one of my older brothers visited and gave me a chocolate wreath and two beautiful notepads and a pen (the chocolate disappeared very quickly).img_4276

My parents and I (is that correct grammar?) watched the new episode of Sherlock. It was entertaining but I don’t think it made sense that Mary had the time to move Sherlock out the way of the bullet – if that’s possible couldn’t he just move himself..?

We also watched the new episodes of the latest series of Father Brown which HAVE impressed me, although I’ll miss Lady Felicia. I like Bunty’s character too, it’s refreshing. Does anyone here happen to watch Father Brown? I’m really into mystery/police/detective shows…

I have also been binging YouTube videos lately. Mostly of gaming or Cards Against Humanity which cracks me up every time. I was re-watching Until Dawn gameplay until about midnight and then I think I had a nightmare within a nightmare when I fell asleep so I don’t think it wasn’t a good idea!

College is back to normal next week. I only had to be in for one and a half days for the start of term for college this week. :3 If I manage to get a C in all my mocks I’ll be surprised but over the moon. If I got higher than that on my English I’d be amazed because I only did half an hour of revision in the morning on the day (shh). However, people who did the mocks before us did give us hints for Geography and English.

My mum took me for KFC as a treat after to celebrate finishing my mocks which was nice. We browsed some shops but I didn’t buy anything and just ended up making the most of the mirrors in the shops. Docs are love, docs are life.

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May 2017 be a better year than 2016. ūüėõ

…Might be difficult considering Trump is the president-elect and Brexit might be in the works but hey-ho.

Notes: featured image not mine, other photos taken on my phone camera

Edit: I just noticed that typo in the second paragraph, I need an editor to edit my editing clearly :’)

Song: Ho Hey by The Lumineers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvCBSSwgtg4)

 

The truth about college

(Based on my experiences in England)

School:

“You’re going to get treated like an adult at college”

College:

“If you find where we¬†hid¬†Eddie the Elf in the weeks leading up to Christmas break you win a bag of sweets”

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School:

“College is a lot stricter”unhelpful school teacher meme.jpg

College teachers:

“That’s all, so¬†you can¬†leave early today”school-attendance-meme

School:

“No swearing”

College teacher:

“Today we’re doing Interactionism so let’s listen to Fuck¬†Tha Police by N.W.A.”fuck-tha-police-nwa

School:

“They will¬†have high expectations”

College:

“You don’t need to do more research because we’ve provided you with all the resources”

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School:

“The work will be harder/you will have to work hard”

College:

“You need to draw and annotate a comic strip for this week’s homework”

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School:

“You need to be better equipped”

College:

*you only need a biro and a highlighter unless you’re doing an art-related subject*

Notes: featured image and other images not mine

All the things above did happen by the way! Sorry this isn’t a normal post. Hope you had a good start to 2017. ūüôā

I’m so tired that¬†I forgot I was meant to post today until I was deep into procrastinating my revision for my English mock tomorrow. Geography and Sociology didn’t go that well but at least they’re only mocks.

Song: Every You Every Me by Placebo (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMaycNcPsHI